It's often hard to see a path forward. The last few months I've been really struggling to figure out where I am going, who I want to be, and what I'm doing with my life. I have been especially worried that I'm litterally wasting away. That my every day is a repetitive, empty set of actions that is leading me nowhere. That I'm already dead.
Recently I've really dove head first into Buddhist practice. At this point, I'm trying to just be here right now. We shall see.